Feelin ~

At night . . my beloved princess call me up n share her sadness. .

i feel that i cant help ! i try my best to convince her to let go her emotions . .

I dunno how 2 ask her let go her emo . . but i trust her , she can make it

Maybe this is d reason that i sense her strong feelin (trust) . . but she did cry for 2 hour ( what do u think when a lady cry in front of u ) ?

her EX-BF mess her then tell her everything is a mistake .. for me i should trust him cos he so in love with miss J... (ppl dun do crazy thing without thinking) beliv him , he still in love with u .

i dunno how to comfort her . . i just try to stay calm, at last i still dunno how 2 help . .

Hope Miss J will be soon happy n receive a new love ~

Maybe something meant to let go ~ ^_^

Sad !

Sad feelin just came it has been a while . every yrs i also got d same feelin.

Went to KTC GRAND ANNUAL PRAYING ( 吉隆坡廣東義山 ), suddenly tear came from nowhere. .

My memory suddenly recalled, i use to live in a happy n wealthy family .

When thing just happen, everything change. . ( i not say that i like d wealthy family, is bcos wealthy family member use some bad tactic to tackle own family member) hunt down family member !

I wish i not born in that family, until now still wanna fight for some not belong to them . . ( is that worth anything) ?

This question has been in my mind since i was a small kid, i dun thing money can buy anything !

Lookin at my dead relatives, feel sorry to them . .

Can human dun so emotion ? Actually this is a gift from god to us . . we shall appreciate . .

Continue to live , my life just aint nothing. . continue to battle with them, although i not wish to cos they still my family member.

When will it stop ? try to ignore it , but . . nothin much can say ! Just only few ppl understand what situation i'm in !

给你的信。给自己的回忆。Post By EX-GF

我很喜欢你。从一开始认识你到现在，我依旧如此。不管你变成怎么样，你好的、坏的，我都照单全收。喜欢一个人本来就该喜欢他的全部。

我知道你也喜欢我，但我们都明白我们不能成为情侣。没办法，我们的距离很是遥远，可却又很志趣相投。很矛盾，是吧？我和你的目标不一致，处事方法不同，不 过简单诚恳地地分享心底话倒能全心聆听和接受。我觉得唯有这种“介于好朋友与普通朋友之间”的微妙关系我才感受到我们能如此接近。

作为一个朋友，我挺欣赏你。我很想帮你，但你却把我推开，没关系，我尊重你的决定。

我仁至义尽了。你是那么一个难得的人才，何苦把自己搞得那么一塌糊涂？我气你不善待自己。你难道会明白吗？别人怎么看其实不重要，人家的眼睛和脑袋你本来就管不了，这是事实！可是你要怎么活着是你的事，关他人什么事？你对得起自己就好了~

你常说不希望身边的人辛苦，难道你这样的生活你身边的人会开心吗？你能换个角度想想，站在我们的位子上看看我们为你付出了多少吗？如果你不想我们这样，你 能答应我们好好过日子吗？很简单啊，我很清楚你不想辜负我们，你总觉得我们对你太好你没什么回报，其实只要你善待自己、好好照顾自己就是对我们最好的报 答。

有一天，你或许参透到何谓“我从来都能和你相处融洽、可以接受得到你，可你从头到尾却接受不了我、想改变我”。你不是坏，只是不懂得利用优点做事。

也或许很久以后你都忘了曾经有个人傻傻等待你“做好自己”。这是一种与生俱来的使命。
你懂吗？

要用多久的时间？你才会明白？我默然问苍天。

Is an entry full of passionate, lovin , caring , understanding. Thank you

EGO !

thank for nothing ! this few day really happen so many thing but i dunno how to share wit u J..

is really damage my brain to settle thing . .

really wish u can be with me when stg goes wrong .. dunno y i trusted u ? (funny)

u should be happy cos u win . . at least some1 step down 1st . . but please treat her as yo fren no matter what !

really feel soft n warm when u bought me d cake from secret recipe on 23-5-09 ( taste delicious )thank you J

(there is some1 jealous when u bought me d cake ) i heard that stg from that day . . J only play play wan to make ppl jealous only . . (my think maybe) is not important for me . . just really thankful .

kinda borin when ppl say thg that they wun know the truth ! but anywaY ... i rather beliv myself

Comment ! i also not that strong that u think . . dunno how to treat ppl like that . . i wan them to be happy but until d end .. u know what they did n say .. ( AIKZ . . treat ppl gud but i stil get a poison needle in my back ) damn fan . . please GOD tell me how !

Congrat ^_^

hey J congrat . . yo prince came back ..

i told u . . just beliv in u . . put some faith in u ~

Everything will be fine ~

Take k My Dear Princess, i goin to melaka 7.oo a.m later . . kinda miz u much ..

U look pretty 2night but not as past . . i do prefer yo past look ~

Cheer For My Dear Princess J . .

p.s rmb to take k yo eyes k . . anythin problem give me a call . . wonderin when i not in k.l do u sms to me ? hehe just jokin

NO Heart Feelin K . . I will wait 4 u to let me know what trouble u . . maybe some other time u will tell me . . i do share with u ~ n Keep Promise

Regret 2 ?

Feel Sick not willin to talk . . feel dizzy, but still can stand on it

Go to NW although feel like wanna sick . . wanna meet J (even sick also wanna meet her)

J ask me why sick also come, reason is easy cos wanna c u ( J )

We chat for a while outside mamak, d question she ask is very weird ~

We when back inside NW continue our chat, i try to pursue her that please treat me as her customer but she also refuse ~

Dunno wherever is my eyes or i really too dizzy, i saw her eyes full of tear. . make me wanna hug her n tell her that dun worry abt my problem ~ i can still settle thg. no worry dear J

if u trust me than every thg will be fine when d time is thru ~

I like her sing alicia keys - if i aint got u ( full of feelin when she sang this song ) cheer up dear . .
dun worry yo voice is good, just need some practice n calm down . . support u always

If I Were Married

Is she cute ^_^

Very lazy still sleepin *_*
disturb her dun wan let her sleep !

Tell u what . . i do love baby so much . . if this little girl is my baby sure i love her with all my best . . cheer baby

My Little Prince ^_^

my son what r u lookin at ?

stun stun ~

haha after bathing with me ! Jun Jun very emo !

成就 ?

2day i give a flower . . real flower to princess J, dunno she like or not ? i just try up . .

i cant help her . . sorry miss j . . i dun get any chance to help ~

hope u dun mind . . u know what is my feelin d . .
thank you for beliv in me . . i reali dunno hw to say ..

is very hard to explain . . u know who i like right ?

miss J . . sorry,

althought i reali got some blur . . i stil know who is d person that i love . .

later nid to go hspital ~ ! goin to c my small sister ..

Miss J . . u know what happen right ? hope u stand beside me n support me

good night ~ mucck love u miss J

FEELIN vs REsult

Few day ago i do know d result, i just wana comfirm it . gonna make sure everythin is in d right track

today is d last day of d competition of d games that we created, finally finish

i can say that i win d games, but i wun admit it . . i still continue say i lose

there is no reason ! no matter win or lose . . is not important anymore !

Cheer MIss J, d result only me n u know about it . . keep in heart . . thank for sharin yo time with me . .

Congrat to miss J

Dear miss J ,I wana let u know my feelin , that feelin to me is very strong BUT

maybe can say, i just a normal guy that can help u only. . not more that help

thank for yo last song . . i really appreciate it . . hope there is a better tml for u . .

There is a chance that we can meet again in someday . . i just gonna admit that i lose on everthin

that competiton act is not a games but is to c how far n how strong is d relation between me n J . i do got crush on her, this is true ! i swear ! i do love her, my princess J

I could tell that me n J can futher more , we could be more than a fren . . this is what i can tell u bro . . dun beliv ? ask ppl ard !

so there is not a matter win or lose d . . i created a feelin thru princess J, maybe u can say she not willin to . .


who know what gonna happen ! who know ?

p.s to my beloved princess J, i will always support u n when u nid some1 . . i will be there 4 u

this is what i promise to u. . faith in u

drop some comment on it .. ..

Emo PLease Go Away ! ! !

2day not happy cos saw my princess J cry ! really dunno what 2 do ? i'm so down n emo ! for me she really treat me as her fren only express her feelin. ( i think she had a big pressure n cant cry in front of her customer) act i wanna borrow her my shoulder but i do saw some eagle eyes lookin at us ! feel sorry for DEAR J.

2day i wanna give robe to J cos if not mistake i goin to singapore on 7.00 a.m later, i wan her to be happy when i go but what i get is totally diff from what i wan ! This is my worse day ever ! i spend money but i dun get happy ! how come always got those emo ! If i not human i think i will happy everyday . . sing like a bird n fly freedom without EMOTIONAL !

At last i just give her a crown n some flower, also nid 2 be scold by my brother ! u know my brother told me if i give crown to miss J, some1 will ask for it also ! what d hell . . i reali wanna fish some1. .
my money ! i wish to give to my angel cannot meh ? y must i ask permission from some1 ! what make me feel bad . . is some1 call up my brother n ask for stg !

This reali a battle between me n my bro ! suddenly dunno y, we fight each other ! hey what happen 2 the world ! sumore my brother were sick n sleepin that time ! it make me feel frustrated ! no more next time !

Yes what i can tell u all is , yes i do love miss J . . n i also hope that she will be my gf oneday . . please notice is not matter she got bf or not ! ! ! please stop those stupid gossip ! i know what am i doin. . thank for remind me ! support her is my choice n i do it on my own way ! NO MATTER I GIVE CROWN OR FLOWER OR ROBE ! ALL ALSO IS MY WAY THAT DO SO ! SHE DINT ASK FOR ANYTHIN . . ( PLEASE KEEP IN MIND) SHE REALLY DINT ASK FOR IT ! Miss T sis told me everthin that happen just now . .thank for you miss T, thank for sharin ~

Maybe she eventually hate me cos what i did, i dint hear her advise n just crown her up. Sorry miss J (cos i really wan u to smile n happy always) i'm so sorry that i misused de money. . n i do know u hate me spend like that cos u think i wastin it right ? but i reali canot stand on it ! they r too much d ! workmate should be happy n sharin ! not fighting each other althought u think u r d best player ard but can u feel that some1 like miss J also heartbreak cos on what u did !

p.s this is not refer on some1. . please think positive !

My dear Princess J, i know i dunno what to tell u but if u reali nid a shoulder to cry on . . i will be there anytime n any place ~ last time i used to call ppl dun cry but now just cry out loud ( as loud as u wan) express all those feelin out ! u will be better tml .

Dun keep in heart, this is only can tell that they r (xiu hei guai) small gas !

I wish i were there to comfort u miss J

I hope u all understand this . . this is blog is not meant for any1 . . just hope that my reader understand it . . Understand that put pressure on some1 is not mean u had greater ability but u just ignore ppl feelin only !

RegRET ? ? ?

Actually 2day very happy cos gonna meet J, i tot she mad of me .. cos yest dint accompany her . . (sorry J) . .

B4 when up meet J, i was with my fren . . there a gatherin in sunway 1 station, there is met my ex. . is kind of weird ! ! ! we dun chat , there is no topic at all ~ !

i sent her home n saw her cry . . there is a reason (sorry cant tell) only miss J know about it. . when she cry i reali dunno what to do cos it make me feel i'm a lousy or a useless guy ! ! ! tell me what should i do? stop her from cryin ? no ! i shouldnt , i used to ask her stop cryin but end of the day she told me that i not understand her . . do u know what the reason ? only 2day i know d answer that she keep a long time . .

She told me from the begining until the end of our relation . . just only she accept me but i din't accept her, maybe the way she wan is not what i done. . the way she say i din't accept her ? frankly speak if i dun like her from the begining . . why i stil waste my time n chase her ? sometime reali hard to work on stg . . not easy to get some1 u like . . maybe there is no chance at all. . sumore she is pretty n smart ! dun think that i deserve to get a long with her ! who know at last we did bcome couple. . this make most of my fren drop glasses . . how come a gurl like her would like me ? ? ? anyway she told me that there is a reason that she like me ! until now i still dunno what reason ? damn lame me !
That reali make me so emo 2day .. dunno what 2 say . . reach new club also stil in emo

But lucky there is some1 that i share my feeling with, do u know who ? (sure miss J) thank you J.
we do got some chat on our past. . thank for sharin yo beautiful moment with me, dunno y when me n j start chat i just feel like we walk d same road, d same thin we do . . it reali make me feel warm n soft cos find some1 like me . . she were so frendly . .i like the way she smile ~ wow melt my heart even i in emo ! ! !

Thank you J

I do feel some regret but not bcos i separate is bcos i dun reali understand her what she reali wan. . she usually dun talk much, even on stg i done wrong, she is like keep everthin inside her . .
this is 1 of d reason we choose separate. Until d day we separate, we dun say break up (D word r so strong) we just leave everythin behind n be fren again. . of course most of my fren feel pity on me cos i loose a good gf . . (act they wan to coax her but fail) .

stay in touch. . dun think much . . PAST IS PAST, IT HAD BEEN HISTORY . . every1 also look for future not past same to u . . i hope when u read this blog, u can free up yo mind . .

P.S really nid to thank for miss J, if nt her willing to caht with me . . i comfirm still in emo right now ! ! ! SALUTE MISS J

HElp Needed ?

Last night i saw miss J not happy . .

i ask y but she dint tell , just mention that some1 ?

Dun worry miss J, if u nid some 1 there always will be some1 beside u

total 3 week i been to NEW CLUB ! ! !

i gather info abt u , i saw n feel what i nid !

still got 3 more day n i should get the result . .

i did promise that i will give u a surprise on 14 - 3 - 09

Just wanna remind u , dun care what other ppl say abt u . . just think is right than is more than enough . .

SPECIAL THANK 2 MISS J for sing me a song last night d song title are

蕭亞軒 - 最熟悉的陌生人

this is my dream song, sumore is sang by miss J . . weird ? hehe i tot so !

money vs heart

my god son reali happy 2 receive it . . iphone . .

For my beloved son . . hehe sorry i haven married yet . . is for my godson

this is for 4 my god-daughter

DUCK vs CHICKEN

1st . . very tired
2nd . . very emo
3rd . . still waiting for my dinner, maybe supper
4th . . dunno how 2 teach my beloved coll
damn frustrated, need to bring 2 thai girl 2 work sumore they dun understand ENGLISH at all ! ! !

My Oh My . . DUCK VS CHICKEN

Been scold by my "BELOVED" Boss, is all about dunno how 2 communicate with other ppl ~ am i wrong ? i dun speak thai ! ok sorry boss, my fault.

now only feel relax cos just reach hotel, i pamper myself with bath tub . . wua haha very syok ~

chat with MISS J, thinking of her ~ lucky i gt her pic 2 look on . .
thank 2 my perfect LAPTOP ~

Borin . . shopping Alone !

i almost crazy liao . . i go shopping alone in raoul
all of this tee cos me ard rm 1300 . .
wah . .


very rush ... gonna go to singapore 2night
but now go to c miss J
gonna miz her much

Done stupid thing

hey . . i'm so sorry

hope u understand why i wan u to accept de money

cos i feel not fair . . so i just wanna help . .

i not using money to . .

this message is special to J

Sorry dear J :(

LAST 2 DAY WENT CRAZY

MOST OF MY FREN SAY SHE PRETTY ~ ACT SHE IS D ONLY PREETY LADY IN DA CLUBOMG . . ding dong y yo face so red de ?

3 brother

do we look blur ?

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